Dear Blog,
It has been rough a couple of weeks now. I'm hurt. I'm broken. I'm incomplete. I'm...lost. I would had never guessed that someone can break you down so bad. I've never had to have mixed emotions like I have been having. How can someone accuse you of something you never did and was so sure of it? How are you supposed to explain things when the only thing they can say is what they accused you of? Well, whatever the case is, I'm just trying to listen and communicate and see how everything goes.

I'm still sad. I'm still broken. I'm still not me.

It is really over.

Well, all I have to say is, I'm happy for you and all that you've done up to now. We will remain forever us.

Anyway, so much has happened since I've last updated ! I've got so many pictures to post too, but there's so many I'm not sure I want to. lol. You guys can just check them out on my facebook page, because i post all the pictures i have on there :) Less trouble for me and more pictures for you ! Let's see...school has been okay. I've been loaded with a bunch of school work, idk why! This semester is really taking a toll on me. Thank God there is only one more month left to go until Spring semester, which I cannot waitttttttttt to attend! I will be taking my NA 1 course in the spring and I am so exciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiited ! Registering for it next monday ! Hooooorah =) As for Jewelynn, she just experienced her first Halloween a week ago I believe, and I must say...she enjoyed it! Especially the caaaaaandy. Who doesn't right? lol. She was dressed as a Lion with a littlle black nose and whiskers. Ha. Well ! Hopefully I can't take my classes next semester online and find a good jobbbbbbbbbbbbb. *fingers crossed!* That's all I'm going to update of as right now. I'm quite sad and shocked and happy all at one time because of something that I read. Hope all is gooooooood =]

Pray for me !

Going to my job interview @ Harris Teeter in 25 minutes! I really need a job!

Chuckie's Bride

L O L !

Take me awaaaaaaay .

I thought telling the truth was supposed to make me feel better? How come it just makes me feel even worse than I did before? Life is sooooooo complicated. No wait, I make life soooooooo complicated. I just need to... Disappear.

I'm not asking for anything but to take me out on a romantic picnic w/ my favorite kinds of foods and a bottle of wine. Let me eat until I can no longer stuff myself and just let me drink my sorrows away. Just enjoy the peacefulness with me and listen to me rant. When I am sad, tell me that I have nothing to worry about because I have you, and mean it when you say it. When I am happy, reassure me that I can be happy like that forever. Help me break my boundaries and lift the stress off my shoulders even if it is just for one minute. Lay down in the beautiful weather w/ me and hold me like there's no tomorrow. Treasure this moment like it's our last. And most importantly, remind me of why I fell in love with you . . .

Speechless.

Why would one put another down so much and through so many obstacles and in the end, pft... they're gone forever? Yeah I admit, it actually makes me sad and I'm not even the one in the situation. It makes me think, what would i do if i was ever in this situation, you know? I can't get it out of my head, WHY WOULD SOMEONE JUST DO THAT TO SOMEBODY THEY LOVE? -sigh- People works in mysterious ways...